I wonder what it's like to be thin your entire life.
I wonder what it's like to never have to worry about what you're eating, when you're eating it, or how many calories you're consuming in a day.
I wonder what it feels like to slip into a size 2 pair of jeans, without even struggling to do up the zipper or get a single roll when leaning over.
I wonder what it feels like to eat fast food, candy, or dessert without feeling embarrassed that someone will judge you and think to themselves, "well, no wonder she's fat."
I wonder what it feels like to stand naked in front of your husband without feeling insecure or wonder if he's staring at your flabby skin and stretch marks.
I wonder what it's like to feel confident in your own skin, and never worry about what anyone else is thinking. To embrace the body that you have, no matter what size or shape it is.
I wonder what it's like to go a single day without thinking about food or weight.....
I hope I live to find out, and break myself from this self-destructive behaviour.
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I think everyone struggles with weight issues. All those teeny tiny people probably live in fear that one day they could be overweight. I do know that you will one day get to the point where you are happy because you are so determined but regardless, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
ReplyDeleteOh, every single one of those resonates with me. I have friends who are so tiny and yet they seem to eat a ton and not have to regularly exercise - my husband is like this as well. It is so frustrating. Good luck with it all!!
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